Emily Wolfe and son HarperLast week at bedtime, my oldest son, Harper (9 yrs.), and I disagreed about staying up late and where he would sleep (he’s afraid of the dark). The disagreement ended in tears. Soon the conversation shifted from bedtime to Harper asking why my husband and I work so much. Harper reflected on our months of “crisis home-schooling” and expressed worry for this school year. Through tears, he said, “I am not intelligent enough to take care of myself. I can’t make lunch on my own. Sometimes I need help remembering to get off the computer or to stop playing a game. I need more. I need your help.” What I heard was an intelligent, articulate child clearly saying, “I need YOU.”

The last day of school for Harper was March 12, 2020. School was canceled after discovering E. coli in our county drinking water. We assumed we’d return to school the following week, but then all schools closed due to COVID-19. None of us knew how bad it would get, or how long schools would be closed. We “crisis home-schooled” mid-March through early June and celebrated many socially distant drive-by birthday parties this summer.

HarperEarly in the pandemic, it wasn’t uncommon for Harper to go to his room around 11 am and lie down on the bed with our dog, Tonka, and remain there silently. He was grieving the loss of normalcy; we all were. Harper is an energetic kid full of curiosities who displays a level of personal insight that I admire, especially for his age. Over the months, Harper often shared how much he missed seeing people (other than mommy, daddy and his 3-year-old brother, Henry). He misses playing with friends at the playground. He misses school.

Recently the NC Union County School Board met to announce plans for reopening schools in August. Beginning August 17, 2020, students will attend face-to-face learning one day per week and remote learning four days per week. It’s a no-win situation. I want my child to learn and socialize (both of which positively impact his mental well-being), but I fear for his physical health. As working parents, my husband and I have been juggling two kids and work, anticipating what the 2020-21 school year might look like, and here it is. As a working mom who cares deeply about both my children and my career, I have spent hours worrying (and at times crying), concerned about meeting the needs of both. How do I ensure Harper doesn’t fall behind in school? Will the school be able to support kids with 504 plans/IEPs in a remote setting? Do we have the financial means to hire private tutors if needed?Henry and Harper Do I deserve this option when others have so little, and yet we are fortunate to still have so much? Am I meeting Harper’s emotional needs? What about Henry’s needs? How are other parents “doing it all”? Why can’t I seem to “do it all”? Can I afford to cut back my work hours? Will I be letting my team down? Why the heck won’t people wear masks?! As you can see, my mind has been busy living in fear for the future and not living in faith while fully tuning in to the present.

How do I respond? I quiet myself. I listen to my children. Like many other working families, I am working hard to balance my career while prioritizing my family’s health and well-being. With support from HERO, beginning in August, I will work limited hours to prioritize the well-being of my children. I know that this is a moment in the arc of my life that I must attend to. For today, I am choosing to live in faith and not fear. Alone I can’t, but together we can.


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  1. Emily 4 years ago

    I have a 9-year old son preparing to start the school year virtually this fall. We are also concerned, as he is an only child and spends much more time on the screen these days. My husband and I are both working from home and our jobs seem to have become even more demanding. We are looking to do an “exchange” with another family who has been practicing social distancing so that our kids can have some interaction each week. We are also asking retired grandparents to help at least one day each week. Luckily our employers have been supportive of a flexible work schedule, but old habits are hard to break. I feel compelled to work my normal hours and be available for my team.

  2. Erica Scott 4 years ago

    Thank you for sharing your perspective Emily! Wow, I am also living this life. So many questions. I too, am leaning on faith not fear. Meditations on Insight Timer are my friend! As is prayer, church group, unplugging on the weekends, workouts, eating healthy and indulging sometimes and sleep hygiene and admitting to my kids that this is not a normal summer, or a normal time and we are all doing our best. May we all be comforted that this too shall pass and much grace is needed for all of us.

  3. Sarah King 4 years ago

    Emily, thank you for articulating so well how many of us are feeling. I could really identify with everything you shared. Juggling work and virtual learning presents a unique set of challenges. I love that Harper was self aware enough to ask for help and you heard him. What a lucky kid. Thanks again for your transparency.

  4. Patty 4 years ago

    Thank you for your authenticity. I’m so happy for you and your children and can never imagine a greater gift to them and to your soul. I appreciate you, Emily! Sending much love, Patty

  5. Kris Haugen 4 years ago

    Such a wise statement from Harper – and a great response from his parents. This is the important part of life! Kudos to you!

  6. Diane Andrea 4 years ago

    Thank you for the courage to share your story and emotions through it all.

  7. Nancy Spangler 4 years ago

    Beautifully said, Emily. Thank you so much for sharing these thoughts of yours and your son’s. You will never regret the time you devote to your family! I applaud you and HERO!

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